My Secret Story...

哇!!!! 365天就这样过去了...  今年的我, 过得还蛮充实的. 我做了好多以前都没做的事情.... 今年, 我参加了越野赛跑, 参加了我从来没想过我会参加的校内乒乓比赛, 参与了sukaneka, 当着大家的面前唱歌, 参加了English drama competition, 还甩了人家一巴掌(是剧情需要啦, 我很斯文的 =D ), 跟同学一起在家庭日的时候办了鬼屋, 还办了很多庆祝会!!!! 我甚至乖乖地出席每个星期的课外活动, 我从中一到中四都是偷懒没去课外活动的...哈哈....不只是这样, 我还办了我人生中第一次的生日会, 也参加了人生中就只有一次的毕业晚会. 当然, 还有很多很多事情啦...... 最重要的是, 我完成了今年最艰难的任务!!!!!! 没有别的, 就是SPM!!!!!! 这两年的苦读, 总算没有白费啦!!! =D 所以, 我新一年的愿望, 一定是希望SPM可以得到好成绩啊!!! 我今年做了很多需要很多勇气的事, 告白也有, 比赛也有, 甚至是举办生日会, 我也用了很多勇气... 至少我没有遗憾吧.....我让自己喜欢的人知道自己的心意, 就算到最后, 我还是没有办法亲口把话说出来, 但他还是知道了. 他也让我实现了我一直以来的愿望.... 我也认识了很多很好的朋友们, 还跟他们拍了好多好多照片, 让我的中学生活可以作个纪念. =)  不仅如此. 我还做了很多很白痴, 很愚蠢的事情, 这些事情, 也只有我的家人和朋友才能忍受... 虽然我老是糊里糊涂, 但我还是很清楚我身边的人对我很好.  有时候我觉得自己很傻, 但其实我知道是自己在装傻; 而有时觉得自己很了解状况, 但我自己根本就不在状况内....所以, 我还是不要想太多会比较好!! 明天就是明年了....时间真的过得太快了.... 我希望在新的一年里, 我可以找到我的目标. 往目标前进!!!!! 我要瘦下来, 也要好好进修我的英文才行!!!!! =D  我也希望自己能过得幸福, 快乐....毕竟从明年开始, 有人会从我的生活中缺席, 也会有新的人出现, 我会慢慢习惯那个人不在我的眼前的日子吧...应该会吧..... 不管以后会怎样, 我希望我和我身边的人都能过得幸福快乐...... 我们一起加油吧!!!!! 我会很...

我的英文烂, 五年前太烂了, 五年后还是一样烂...... 太丢脸了!!!! 我只是一时写错而已啊!!!!!!!! 我的天啊!!!! 我的英文为什么会那么烂啊???? 我来不及改正啦!!!! 丢脸死了!!!!!

I am writing my story again, My secondary life.......Is hard to remind myself about the things happened past few years, but I think I will remember them one by one soon, then I shall count the names appeared in my story, you might be one of the main characters in my story too!!!!! =D But I am not that stupid to write here, I will write elsewhere... hahaha......Okay, I am getting crazy.....LOL Recently, there is something weird happening around. Straight to the point, I hate cheaters, especially those who cheat people for money, Old People.....!@#$$%^&*  And now, can anyone tell me how to deal with these brainless people.....this piss me off and I really hate the feeling!!!!! Cheaters AWAY!!!!!!!! I must forget this...I dont want to waste the space in my brain to remember this stupid thing...... urgh......

Say Hi to my brand new Layout!!!! It took me an hour to change it!! It was a hard decision you know!!! I love the previous one so much, especially the background!!! I love beach!!!! ^.^ Anyway, I think now is the best time to change my blog template!!! To refresh my emo Blog...LOL (I no emo all day long right???) Don't you think my blog look brighter now?? I am proud with my masterpiece!!!! =D  (Nah.... I know I didnt change my blog a lot...but I am happy with it) I hope everything will be fine and smooth next year.... Is 2012!!!!! o.O We should not think to much...Haha... We will have a bright future!!!! =D We are all grown ups now!!! People are going to find part time jobs, going to college, having their brand new start next year, and I am going to form 6 too....Form 6 is not that bad right??At least I can save more money for uni and I have enough time to think of my future, I guess....Ahh....I shall finish my plan one by one first.... No matter what, I will face the realit...

This is a long story....where should I start??? Lets make it a summary then..... Just went back to home from hospital yesterday. I was admitted to the hospital for three days because of the dengue fever. The fever started last friday, I thought I just caught a cold and not that serious, and I thought I would be better after a few days, But it was not that easy as I thought, I had fever for days and sore throat at the same time. I felt dizzy and uncomfortable all day long. Finally, I went to see the doctor. The doctor said I should take a blood test at the hospital for my own good. The next day, I took my blood test and my white blood cells were extremely low. Which means: I need to admit to the hospital. It sounded scary, really scary. I dont want to go to the hospital, and now you asked me to admit?? Come on!! But I had no choice, who ask me to be so weak and useless??? Sigh.... Then, I stayed in the hospital for three days. In these three days, something is proven... I am 17 year...

I dont know why am I posting this, but I think maybe is because I want to post something to let you know.... Yesterday was an awesome night!!! It was far better than I thought. And of course I took a lot of pictures!!! (Y) When I first saw you in the prom, I thought of something......I should take a picture with you and other ex-classmates since yesterday was officially the last night of our secondary life. Anyway, there was a problem: I knew that others will be okay to take picture with me, but I was afraid that you wont agree...As you know, although we didnt talk to each other at school, but a lot of things happened in these past few years. So, I hesitated, then Jeannie ask you to take a picture with her, and she asked me too. I hoped you wont feel awkward since Jeannie was there. =) Then, I was shocked when you sent me the message to apologize. And it was quite scary because I thought I did something wrong that makes you angry.....again....Haha..... Well, I said Is okay........

今天, 是还书的日子. 我走进校门口, 朋友刚好也到了学校. 见到好久不见的朋友, 心里很高兴. 我想, 他们应该也很高兴吧. 毕竟他们刚从毕业旅行回来, 不开心才怪呢....哈哈 见到他们, 至少可以让我把一整个星期的阴霾散去不少. 听着他们告诉我去langkawi的事情, 有点羡慕, 也有点向往, 不过我觉得还好啦!! 真的!!! =) 我这群超级无敌有义气的朋友, 前几天在Langkawi 打电话给我, 我已经觉得很不好意思了. 没想到, 她们竟然真的买了礼物给我, 害我有点受宠若惊呢....不过....... 知道这是什么吗???? 蔚仪说, 这是纸包鸡... 而你知道吗???  要不是她们说这是易碎品, 我真的相信这是纸包鸡...=.= 很好笑吧??? 不好笑也要笑!!!  =) 然而, 她们送我的, 其实是...... 贝壳风铃!!!!! 很漂亮吧!!! 我超爱的!!!! =D 我超喜欢贝壳的!!!  我真的很感动哦.... 现在的我, 只希望一切事情都可以很顺利, 不要再让我心烦了啦!!!! 很乱啊!!!! 我要很快乐地度过我的假期!!!! 快乐地做我喜欢的事情!!!!! =)

Should I buy a new dress for the prom??? Or just wear the old one???? Is this the right decision?? I feel wrong because I think I am wasting my parents' money. But this is once in a life time, I mean this is the only prom for secondary life. The prom is just like a full stop for my secondary life, sounds important right??? Well, Maybe I should not think too much. Maybe I could find a more suitable dress compared to my old one. I need to find something that matches myself. Is too hard to burn the fats on my arms in 4 days unless I am insane.... And of course I am Not!!!! LOL I want to take nice pictures for the prom....So, I need to look better...which means....Burn Fats....Maybe I should not mention the word "fat", I should say I must look Thinner than now!!! =D I will see later, who knows I can find my dress, who knows I think the old one is better....who knows??? =)

我放弃, 是因为逼不得已...我是多么的想去, 但就是不可以....就算机会摆在我的面前, 我就是没办法去..... 一定会有下一次的, 对吧???? 再举办一次, 可以吗?? 如果是星期天, 我想尽任何方法都会去的!!!! 我一定可以去的!!!! 我真的很想去啦!!!!! 我真的很想念我的朋友啦............

今天, 是我忙了一整个月后, 第一天的假期. 不过, 我并没有真正地让自己好好地放假休息, 因为我要整理我的书橱, 花了一整天的时间去整理, 才发现我真的有好多书没放好, 而且到处都有我的书的踪影, 太夸张了吧!! 不过, 当我在清理的时候, 才发现, 我真的舍不得把那些书本丢掉, 或者转让给别人... 以前, 我总是以为, 对于高中生活, 我不会有太多留恋, 但其实并不是这样的, 我真的很舍不得, 感觉好像只要我把那些书本丢掉, 就好像要丢掉我的回忆一样, 很夸张吧?? 哈哈... 至于我到底舍不得什么, 我想不用我说, 都会有人明白吧!!! (不要想太多哦!!) 我决定了!! 我会把一切记录下来, 那就不怕我会忘记啦!! =) 怎么办?? 我现在又有点想哭的感觉.....去年是这样, 今年也是这样吗?? 我还是一个人, 中学朋友去游玩, 小学朋友去gathering, 而我呢?? 却只能一个人留在自己的天空里, 独自发呆....这也太可悲了吧!! 去 langkawi 的事, 我早就放弃了.....可是, 去gathering 的事, 我还是抱着希望的!!! 可是为什么是星期五呢?? 我没人载耶!!! 如果是星期天, 我至少还有人载, 我还能说服我妈啊!!! 我还是能去的!! 可是为什么是星期五?? 为什么??? 这样的结果, 对我太残忍了吧?? 我现在只能希望, 我能参加这次的gathering, 我等了一年了耶, 都快要像长颈鹿了. 不要在让我一个人躲起来哭了, 好吗?? 老天爷!! 请实现我的愿望吧!! 告诉我, 我不是一个人, 对吧??? 我不要再一个人了..... 今年是我最幸运的一年, 所以我的愿望会实现的, 对吧?? p.s     不过, 现在想一想, 一个人也可以做很多事情, 不是吗??  =) (我还是很想去gathering的!!!)

SPM IS OVERRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! OVERRRRRR!!!!! REALLY OVER!!!!!!! =D I AM SOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPPPYYYYY!!!!! =D After one month of hard work (actually we only need to spend 10 days, but we took the whole month), everything is pay off!!!! Well, honestly, the papers were actually easier than I thought. But I think I screwed up my chinese essay... (I hope I did not......) Look at the Bright Side!!! I did my best!!! Is time for the Law of Attraction!!! I can get A for my Chinese!!!! =) And Tonight, I will have a good night sleep!!! 8 hours!!!!! (Y) This is awesome!!! Say Bye bye to Panda eyes and eyes bag!!! From now on, I need to plan something to do.... get my driving license, find a part time job, go for a trip, finish my cross stitch, clean up my bookshelf, burn the fats on my arms, ready for the prom or anything.....Oh yeah!!! The most important thing, Dramasssss!!!!! Although I feel free right now, I think I might get bored after a period of time. I think I never have holidays th...

今天... 不是!!! 应该是昨天了. 应该是最后一天了吧....以后都不能在这样了, 对吧?? 很想让自己找个借口哭, 但就是哭不出来....因为, 我好像并没有非哭不可的理由... 或许是因为我觉得这五年的时间, 我做的, 我等的, 我期待的, 我拥有的, 都已经够了. 也或许是因为, 我的直觉告诉我, 这并不是一个句点, 以后还是会再见的..... 也可能是因为, 我能够记住这些有的没的, 就已经很幸福了.....所以根本不需要哭.... 或许, 现在的我, 因为太累, 所以没力气去哭......或许, 等我想到这一切真的结束时, 感到心痛时, 可能, 眼泪就止不住了吧.... 我真的没有必要去逼自己觉得难过吧....我的心, 不知是这么的, 是满足的.... 如果说, 有人会看见我写的这些, 明白我想说的话, 那么那个人就会了解我现在的心情 , 让我觉得我有被记得的价值.....也让我证明了一些事情......一些我很想知道的事情..... 对了!!! 我很想知道他为什么会知道那是我啊??? 是他自我感觉过于良好吗??? 还是一些其他的原因呢????  算了吧!! 我想我是很难得到答案的.... 不管怎样, 我想我会记得最后一天我见到的一切吧.....应该会吧.....让它作为最后的纪念吧... 我会过得很幸福的....一定会幸福的...=) 以后再见到我的时候, 我会是比现在更好的人.....更快乐的人....=)