My Secret Story...

Hmm, can't think of any title for my post today, I just simply want to blog something I guess...Like A Boss! Haha... Okay I'm seriously out of my mind, I can't help being so random.. Before I start blogging, the first thing that came into my mind was the complaints about my school. I had a lot of stories to share, I got a lot of complaints to tell, but I gave up on writing that because I knew that is no point complaining so much, it won't change anything. Probably I would feel better after pouring them out, but I think every friend of mine has already heard about the stories from me, so..... That's all then...=) I shall continue the stories in my muet journal book later...LOL Despite the pathetic school rules, kokurikulum activities and lack of sophisticated infrastructures and facilities, all I can say is, I will learn to be independent and adaptable in new environment in my school, I have no other choices than that right? I have to continue my life as a "...

我其实很努力了, 努力地去适应新环境, 努力地去熟悉一个完全陌生的环境, 努力地去认识新朋友, 努力地去接受这样的新生活, 努力地告诉自己我必须改变, 必须努力地加油... 毕竟现在的生活比我想像的要辛苦很多... 有人说, 一个人在拥有的时候会不断地埋怨, 等到失去的时候, 即将有新的开始的时候, 就会开始怀念过去所拥有的. 或许, 我是这样的人吧... 以前放半年假的时候, 希望可以去做一些有意义的事情,可是现在开学了, 我却每天迫不及待想要回家睡觉... 如果可以的话, 我也不想埋怨, 可是学校的状态实在是让我没有办法不埋怨, 我现在不想多说些什么, 因为实在是太多了. 我最近也很忙, 功课多到我根本没时间开电脑, 课程难到我上课时头脑都在打结, 待在学校也觉得很闷... 也因为这样, 我最近老是发脾气, 有原因也好, 没理由也罢, 我的心情就是没办法好起来. 开学到现在, 我没有一天是轻松的, 也没有一天是真正开心的, 我变得很不像原本的自己. 对于我现在的生活, 我是希望可以变得更好, 我很想变得活泼一点, 开朗一点, 至少可以认识多一些人... 不过, 我累了, 我好像在我的心房外筑了一道墙, 任谁都没有办法靠近. 或许, 我需要的, 是一些时间吧, 我需要时间去接受, 去适应. 下星期就放假了, 我就好好利用那两星期的时间去沉淀吧, 之后应该就会好一些了吧. 我先去睡觉了, 先不想那么多了...=)

Happy Labour Day!!! =) Although I'm not a worker, but I'm still happy about it because it's a public holiday! Today is the first day of May, nothing special happened. Well, but I did went to Loudspeaker with my parents and finally I found and sang my favourite song, if you know which song i'm talking about. =D Few days ago, I received the form 6 offer letter. After stoning at home for nearly 5 months, I gonna start my school life again soon. Not college, but School. :s Thanks to my procrastination and hesitation, I sent the scholarship application for taylors foundation only, and they rejected me T.T.  Plus most of the scholarships reached the deadlines or they didn't offer full scholarships. And because I couldn't make up my mind on picking courses, my parents suggested me to go form 6 since STPM will take two years time and of course Save Money... For your info, I'm not rich people!!! Sigh. Stpm is not that bad, it's just that I feel so lonely beca...