若无法一如既往，那没关系。 若依然无法理解，那也别太刻意了。 如果要说出明知道我会讨厌的话， 那还是沉默吧。 若性格本就不合，那也就没分是谁的对错了。 算了吧。不要勉强了。顺其自然吧。 看了一段很有意思的话， 他的从来和你的从来，一直都不一样。 从一开始就不一样。 还是高估了自己。 还是会想念，那年开怀大笑的自己。 那个没有太多想法，可以承认自己其实很开心的自己。 总感觉很多经历一直不断在循环发生，感受却一次比一次深刻。 一次又一次地说不要付出真心，再一次又一次地卸下心防。 然后，神经一次比一次敏感。 看似习惯了孤独，却又渴望陪伴。 矛盾啊。最后还是输给了自己。笨蛋。
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8 assignments are awaiting. 1 of them having a due date next Weds and I'm still having 0 progress. It feels like I'm not myself anymore. Lost of direction and motivation. I wonder where my kiasu'ness and the hardworking me gone. I will survive in the end anyway, right? Always run away from reality and pain by putting myself into long hours of sleep. This is too much. And again it goes the another way round from my third year resolution. Since I have no social life now, at least I need to do well in my studies right? The feeling of guilt for wasting 10 weeks consecutively and doing nothing productive. What is wrong with me man! Wake up wei! I couldn't afford a drop in CGPA anymore. I don't want to pay back my loans. But the subjects I'm taking now are killing me as it feels like I'm having an empty brain. Suppose to finish my tutorials now and what am I doing here again? Stressed and Lost. I just wanna be me again. The better me. ...