My Secret Story...

6 1/2 hours to go!!!! Say bye-bye to 2010....the year of honeymoon(actually it was not). Here comes the year of......... *HOPES!!!! I gonna be very busy.....haha... 2011, a lots of things to do, a lots of things to plan..... at the same time, SPM APPROACHING.... huhhhhh..... OMG!!! I am getting older more matured......I think..... =D I got my books two days ago, there were 19 of them(and they are heavy) + exercises books......I had to bring all of them to my dad's car by my own. Well.....everyone got the same situation, not just me, but at that time, I was hoping there would be a trolley there....or maybe someone who is kind enough to help me, Of course that was a DREAM, I still need to carry them to my dad's car.....After few hours later, when i was checking my books, I found they gave me the two Chemistry text books!!! WTH Come on, now I need to go twice...=.= Fortunately, the SPBT students were there and I got my pratical book back......

Recently, I was addicted to a super duper nice korean drama..... He's Beautiful!!!! 原来是美男啊!!! It had been such a long time I didnt addicted to a drama....but now I fall in love again with the best korean drama... Before I started to watch the drama, I had watch the trailer, it was nice!!! Then after I started watching, I cant resist it, but I still can control myself, not like Emily, watch the whole drama after she watched the first episode....haha The reasonS I like this drama are: This drama is funny and really really nice <3 Hwang Tae Kyung is awesome, cool and he looks cute when he smiles.. Go Mi Nam / Mi Nyu is pretty, obedient and sometimes she melts Tae Kyung's heart... Kang Shin Woo always take care of Mi Nyu and keeps her secret... Jeremy is the cutest among them, he makes everyone in the group feel cheerful all the times..... The best thing is They are all talented : they can sing, dance and act well!! A.N.JELL!!!! too much reasons, cant list all of them...

Well, I cut my hair yesterday.....as a brand new start... but it cost a lot too (RM33 for a hair cut o.0)....haha Now, I got a new look, after I kept my precious long hair for 4 years T.T.....Before that, my mom had asked to cut my hair short for N times...cant count....=) But now, the first time I wanted my hair be short, but not really short lah.... Because I wanted to have a BRAND NEW START!!!! Start everything over again, just like when I was form 1. This is because I found that I was 'sesat'...(not in the forest LOL) I changed a lot (but not really a lot), I thought too much and I was getting blur and confused about my thoughts.... I am tired of these...I just want to be a simple 16+ years old teenager... thats all....btw, next year I gonna be very busy, I dont want anything else that will distracts me from my studies. (I hope so lah) =D So..... Tata....Merry Christmas!! =) (just random) Chow Zi Huey will gonna be an OPTIMIST!!! Muahahaha p.s...

努力不想让别人知道我有多难过, 但是我才发现这样很难, 因为我更加难过了... 欲哭无泪, 还是强忍着泪水, 这两者的感觉, 我都体会过了... 人家说, 世界上最遥远的距离, 是我站在你前面, 你却不知道我的心在想什么. 但现在的我觉得, 最遥远的距离, 是我明明知道你就在那里, 我却无法靠近... 怎么可以这样对我!!!!! 要么就带我到远一点的地方, 让我彻底死心啊!!! 为什么偏偏就要在对面的大楼呢??? 这样也太绝了吧!!! 我等了一年, 整整一年!!! 现实也太残忍了吧....我明明就有机会跟他们聚在一起的, 为什么要这样对我!!! 我又要再等一年.....ahhhhhhh.....你知道我有多想念他们吗???? 好不容易才等到, 却要这样对我.... 什么公平不公平, 世界永远都是不公平的呀!! 我不管了!!! 明年SPM过后, 我一定要去, 一定要!!!!!!!!!!!! 什么都没办法阻止我..... p.s 这应该是最后一次我会这样了, 我会很努力, 很努力, 很有耐心地等待下一次的来临.......你们一定要等我....

I had failed again....for the same thing....T.T WHY!!!!! I cried for the whole night...... If I really have to choose, I will definitely choose to go there, I will not hesitate, I'M SERIOUS!!! but what can I do??  I can do nothing, nothing will change....I have to wait for a year....(again) someone tell me the way to feel better, please......or tell me the way to ask to go......please...... aaaahhhhhh!!!(shout) p.s   dont worry, I just want to express myself, thats all.... I will cheer up, I will try.....just let me emo for a while....just a while

我相信我还有机会的, 只要我不放弃, 就会有希望的!!! 加油!!! =)

DECEMBER!!!! today is the first day of December!! why am I so excited?? those who are reading this must be curious right? Actually there's nothing. I just want to be more optimistic..haha....just like usual, I guess.. Time passes so fast......(again) I still remember the first day I went into 1 Sigma, 3 Eta and 4 Sigma, but I just cant remember the first day of becoming a form 2 Sigma student...haha Well, next year, I will become the Senior of the School!!! muahahaha.....(trying to act like dai ka che) and a form 5 student who needs to face SPM!!! boooo...... Come on!!! start from today(again), is time to become a 'hardworking' person. I will have a brand new start next year, no more blah blah blah stuff, no more thinking something useless that will confuse myself or make me depressed. All I will be doing is just like the first day I came to the secondary school, think of nothing, just be a simple student: study, try to be active in co-cu, and get more Friends!!! ...

I feel like crying.....but I cant... I have been waiting for 1 year, just because of my dear friends... Finally, the day has come....I am so happy. I thought although they said I cant go anywhere again, but I will still show my determination to them...... But for now, nothing....nothing else.....no more hope, the wish that I have made for this year will not become true.... :'( For many people, a gathering is just a simple thing, is not really important...but for me, it means a lot, a lot..... I could only see my old friends once a year (not including those who still study at the same school of mine) Now, they decided to postpone the gathering, I cant attend the gathering due to some reasons.... I know I cannot be a selfish person, so....  all i can do is just hope my dear friends will enjoy themselves.....=)

我期待的那一天终于来了!!! 6C班的Gathering 就在下下个星期, 如无意外的话.... 可是, 我真的很怕我没办法去, 因为我可能要balik kampung, 也怕会期待落空, 我好不容易等到现在, 就是为了再见他们一面, 跟他们说话, 我真的很想念他们, 是真的!!! 老天爷!! 请您一定要让我再见他们, 让一切顺顺利利的.....我真的很想念我的朋友....

Suddenly I want to everyone that, I love Teddys!! They are so cute!!! no matter they are big, medium or small in size, I still love them!!! and I like to hug them too....haha My first cute bear!! it knows all my secrets...hehe  My second bear!! haha.... CUTE!! This is mp3 player!! I hope I have one... Rainbow the 'coffee' bear OMG!!They are actually 1.2 meter tall!!! =D p.s I hope one day I will have a shop which sells teddys and present, and I will be the boss!!! hahaha.... Teddy Bear is the best !! =)

嫉妒和羡慕之间的差别是什么?? 我不知道, 也开始分不清....... 我原以为我已经可以接受, 但是我发现自己内心里的矛盾, 快压得我喘不过气来, 真的..... 一直向前走, 走不完距离, 一直向后退不出回忆, 很高兴有心事, 帮我困住自己. 我所谓的百毒不侵, 就是希望自己能放下, 不要在原地踏步. 可是, 现在的我, 思想已经乱到让我很难过. 看见别人很快乐, 很幸福, 也很幸运的时候, 我真的... 我知道我太不知足, 也太贪心了. 现在的我, 不能让自己有自私的想法, 也努力地学着去放下, 学着去面对.... 因为矛盾真的很可怕.....我只想要有一个单纯的想法...去打开我心里的结.... 我只想要我和我身边的人快乐, 幸福. =)

Well, Well, Well....is time for HOLIDAYs!!!!!   Honestly, I'm not really excited because I do not plan anything to do during holidays...I have started my holidays earlier because I won't go to school anymore. My family asked me why and I told them there was nothing to do at school, the teachers did not come to class, I had got all my exam results and I seriously got nothing to do besides chatting and playing cards. Oh yea!!! Suddenly remembered, yesterday, Emily used UNO cards as tarot cards!!!(although I am the one who started it first) LOL She forced me to ask about relationship and she took Wei Yi's bottle as crystal ball. She acted like she is a professional and kept on talking something ridiculous. She even asked everyone in my class and we were like "wth she is talking about". But still, I was not that bored after all.  Haha!!  Back to the point, I really have no idea about what should I do during the one and a half  holidays at home. No ...

Bio got B, Chemis got B, Chinese got B, Sejarah got B!!!!!!!! I never get B for sejarah before, but now..... urgh.....I hate it!!! Although I still got As for other subjects, but I am totally in bad bad mood today, all results I got were so baddddd...=( I know they were just marks that show A,B,C,D, BUT........ haiz....I don't want to care anymore!! So, I decided to do exercises everyday during holidays, add maths, chemis, bio, physics and more and more to go, if I am determined enough. I must burn Fats too!!! I want to become a better person!!! =) jia you jia you!!!

I'm SMART , I'm THIN , I'm ACTIVE , I'm SOCIALISED , I'm HONEST , I'm OPTIMISTIC , I'm PRETTY , I'm PER FECT !!! Someone: Stop lying!!! you are not that prefect!! Me: Yup!! I am trying to lie to myself, they will let me feel better.... The Truth is, I am not Perfect. I am not smart enough, but I am not stupid; I am not thin enough, but I think I am not that fat; I am not active enough, but at least I still like sports; I am not socialised, but I still want to be friend with everyone; I am not honest enough, because I will still lie to protect myself; I am not optimistic enough, because sometimes I will look at the dark side of things; I am not pretty, I know that!!! but I think I'm not that ugly, right?? So, I'm not perfect, no one is perfect. I am just simple enough to be simple. But there are still lot of people that are nearly prefect, and luckily they are my friends, my classmates, my role models..... And..... You...

等待是幸福的, 我一直这样相信着.... 所以, 我是一个超级无敌有耐心的人. 相信吗??? Haha.... * 有空听一下 "背影" 吧!! 你就会了解我是怎样的一个人.....    因为我超爱这首歌了!!!! =) 

我有一个 小 小 的 愿 望...... 属 于 我 的 东 西, 也 就 是 我 的 回 忆, 是 否 能... 让 我 再 一 次 拥 有 我 失 去 的 东 西....... *这原本是一个秘密,  但我想重新开始, 也不想伤害人, 所以我想坦诚....    如果有人明白我的意思的话, 请不要问我为什么, 只要相信我,    我只是不想失去我最在乎的东西.....

5 more days.............I WILL BE FREEEEEEE!!! These few days, I only spent 5 hours to sleep, 5 HOURS!!! Its just a normal exam, not SPM...so why i have to treat myself like this......panda eyes, tiredness, depression, stress....urgh...i hate this.... But nevermind, just three papers left, experiments and chinese, i think they will be easier compared to other papers (but actually they are quite hard). At least i got more time to sleep!!!! No more panda eyes......=) Go Zi Huey!! Hahahah

Well...time passes sooo fast, today is already the first day of October, Happy Birthday to you, my old friend!!! Two days ago, when it was my sweet 16 birthday, my 'dear' add maths teacher, Pn. Lee Kwee Hiong had gave me a special present: To all Form 4 students, the final exam will be on 18th October until 3rd November !!!  wow, that was the 'best' present i ever had for my birthday.... Before that, I actually decided to do my revision later, but now I got no choice, procrastinate is useless, no more last minute work allowed....Wei yi, Emily, Zhi Chin, May Yi, Jeannie and even Wern Jian have started their revision. I cant just sitting there doing nothing......I need to stop myself from facebook, msn and blogger, but I know is impossible!! please tell me that I am not addicted!!! The only thing I can do on the next 17 days is concentrate, concentrate, concentrate; study, study, study!!!NO MORE PROCRASTINATING!!! OMG!! I almost forget about my ...

今天我16岁咯!!! 我每一年都很期待今天的到来, 因为1994年的今天是我来到这世界上的大日子哦!!!! 每一年的生日虽然没有大肆庆祝, 但我都过得很幸福, 因为我身边一直有人陪我呀!!! 老实说, 我每次许愿除了一些不能说的秘密以外, 都是希望朋友会记得我的生日, 送我礼物, 这种愿望很奇怪, 也很白痴对吧?? 没错, 我就是这样..... 因为我只是平凡到不行的周紫慧呀, 人缘自然也好不到哪里去. 可是, 今天我的收获还蛮丰富的耶.....蔚仪送了一只我最爱的Teddy Bear, Emily 就和其他朋友合起来送我一个书包, 我真的很喜欢!!! 好久没有这种感觉了.....大家一起唱生日歌给我听, 搞得我不好意思leh...家里还有蛋糕等着我呢!!! haha... 所以,就算还差了一点点, 也没关系啦!! Thats all for today.... p.s. I wanna say thank you to all 4 Sigmarians and my best friends!!! I like the presents and <3 you guys =)

天啊!!!! 请让我的愿望实现吧......只要让我听到我最想听的那句话, 就足够了..... 

今天, 我,sotong mui, 爱美丽, 美人鱼和一修和尚去听SPM华文的讲座会. 她们的名字都很奇怪吧?是我取的......hehe 没想到, 华文一向是我最有信心的一科, 我竟然考到C!!!! 所以, 我就跟她们一起去听讲座会咯...当初要get permission 的时候, 没想到我妈一口就答应了耶. 因为就算我的"好朋友们" 都说我是鸟, 但我却没有鸟该拥有的自由.... 话说回来, 那个讲座会虽然有用, 但其实还蛮闷的, 因为我们在听的同时, 也在那里搞自拍. 不过, 那个讲师说的话很炸到, 也很冷....让讲座厅的空气冷上加冷, 搞到我们只好把手伸进背包里....(真后悔没带外套) 后来, 要回家的时候, sotong mui 的爸妈带我们去吃东西, 我觉得好不好意思的耶..不过, 她的家人都很亲切, 所以都还好啦. 谢谢大家!!!!! 最近, 我发现好多人都在谈王力宏的歌以及 post 上他们弹钢琴的video, 太厉害了吧!!! 好羡慕他们哦!! 如果有人在我面前弹"背影"给我听,我一定感动到哭! 一定!!!!!!! 至于为什么会哭, 了解我的人应该就会知道原因的吧... 突然间想起中秋节时对着月亮许的愿望: 不知道会不会实现呢?? 真的希望那个从来没跟我说happy birthday 的人会跟我说一声耶.....

I FINALLY HAVE MY OWN BLOG!! =D I had planned to make my own blog months ago, but i made it now because before that i kept thinking whether i should use English or Chinese as my language. So, i made a decision: I WILL USE BOTH!!! because someone told me that if i just be myself, everything will end well. I think mostly i will use chinese as my language due to my poor english standard, but i will still use english to write a post if i'm confident enough....hehe so...thats all for today.... ps: i'm sorry if there are grammar mistakes.....       using Chinese for the next post, strictly for chinese-educated readers.... = )