My Secret Story...

Tick tock tick tock.. Time flies~~~~~ Today is the last day of 2012 already! =) 2012, what a Challenging and Remarkable Year.  Made important decisions, faced obstacles, picked up new skills, dealt with emotional dependency and met new friends.  I had thought a lot this year and had many emotional moments when I was alone...  It was not easy to me, when I decided to take STPM. I had to start everything again from the beginning. Close friends were studying at different places, the one person that I cared the most was not there, that school was a strange place to me, the people there were new faces to me (except for some). I thought I was going to be a loner there, but things got different... I'm still the same old me, talkative plus sampat, it's just that I still keep some of the feelings to myself. My classmates are really awesome! They made me laugh everyday and I really love spending time with them. I feel comfortable and happy when I see them, ...

Hmm, can't think of a title today, make it as a random post then! =) Went out with pre-u friends yesterday, Ying Sun was the one who asked us out this time! She is the Boss! Haha... Imagine how excited "we" were... Ehem* =P It was great to see them again, at least I wasn't that emo and the weather was nice yesterday! =) We watched CZ12, Jackie Chan's movie. Love the story and the actions done by Jackie and the team, at least the scenes amused me and I laughed a lot... You know I'm craving for laughter right? LOL  Jackie's wife, Shu Qi and Daniel Wu were the cameos in the movie too! That surprised me by a little.. hehe Saw Lee Hom on the screen before we left the cinema! =D Then, we went to Sushi Zanmai for.... teatime? haha Since I had Choco Banana Pancake for lunch in the cinema. XD Had Spicy Ramen and someone treated me sashimi.. Lol But to be honest, I prefer Sakae Sushi... That's all... :3  After that, we walked around pyramid for hours and...

Jingle bells, Jingle bells, jingle all the way~~~ =D Had a very special Christmas morning today! Well, I didn't really celebrate Christmas for the past 17 years... but I did enjoyed seeing those decorations(especially Christmas Tree) everywhere during the season! =)  Woke up early in the morning, followed my mum with her friends to the Lovely Disabled Home to visit the disables... or maybe I should say the "special" ones! =) They were having a Christmas party there.. They were sitting around and having some group activities...  They caroled, danced and played games together... =) Not forget to mention, they danced gangnam style too...XD Then, it was gift-giving time! Before that, I heard that the disables actually wrote what they wished to have for christmas in a wishlist... And guess what, their dreams came true! =) The volunteers bought the presents that the disables wished for. The presents were neither luxurious stuffs, nor IT products like we norm...

Have been thinking a lot these few days, Emo to the Maxxxxxx.... Well, I always become emotional for the same reason.. The same old reason that can brighten my day or sometimes put me into the feeling of depression again and again... Haih.. Hmmm, maybe it's because I'm a typical Libra I guess?? Getting emo easily is one of the main characteristics! LOL Used to envy other people who always have their best friends as company wherever they go and take tons of pictures together, while for me, that's not an easy thing because my friends and I were drifted apart and we could hardly spend time together. What a Bad Habit! Used to stalk other people's love stories, sometimes they tell me theirs by themselves.. LOL Knowing too much needs more brain juice to keep secret... Bad Habit! Used to read other people's mind from their expressions and sometimes using my "sixth sense". My 'sixth sense" kinda accurate though(for other people), no kidding,  it's...

看我的开头, 应该就知道我的想法到底有多复杂了吧? Haih.... 最近想了很多很多事, 也想起很多很多人... 还发了很多奇怪的梦 (梦到炎亚纶对我好耶!), 所以我才说我真的想太多咯... 不只是这样, 空闲的时间太多, 心情也变得很情绪化, 有时侯想着想着, 还会哭出来...我其实很不喜欢那样的自己耶... 我承认, 一直到现在, 我还是活在回忆里面, 一直陷在那里, 不想面对现实, 认为以前的时光是最美好的. 可是怎么办呢? 回忆, 是有让人觉得很怀念的时候, 但有时,也有令人难过心痛的时候... 想起自己做过的傻事, 真的可以就这样找个洞钻进去算了... 总是觉得现在的自己很孤独, 总是觉得身边的人很难留住, 毕竟人是会变的, 包括我自己也一样. 或许是我自己太没有安全感吧, 所以没有自信能留住些什么. 现实是很残忍的, 我曾经单纯地以为, 只要我没变, 大家也应该会一样吧. 可是, 事实上, 大家都变了, 长大了, 成熟了, 想法不同了, 遇见的人也不一样了, 都不可能回到从前了, 连我也是这样啊...所有的回忆都成为过去了... 因为知道这个事实, 所以一直很怕, 真的很怕, 好朋友会变成陌生人; 也很怕自己会忘记过去曾经那么在乎的人... 不是我对友谊没信心, 而是我觉得没有安全感而已...总觉得自己好像没有办法在别人心中留下特别的位子...即使他们对我来说都很重要.... 有时侯, 我也会想, 是不是自己太固执了呢? 如果, 我的心, 像握紧的拳头一样慢慢张开, 不要再留恋过去, 好好把握现在身边的一切, 或许我就不会像现在一样那么失落吧... 然后, 慢慢地, 把那曾经让我心动, 也让我心痛的原因给忘掉, 或许, 我的心也会慢慢敞开吧... 算了吧, 我又开始想太多了... 看来我真的很缺乏安全感吧... >.< 最近领悟到的一件事: 这世界唯一永远不变的定律, 就是世界会不停地在改变... 看来我是时候要改变了... =)

奇迹出现了... 不管怎样, 我还是相信当初的感情还是一样的... 就算再怎么变, 总会有些事情是不会变的... 就像和他们的关系.... 就算再久没见面, 再次见面的时候, 还是能够找到那曾经的熟悉感吧... 6C/2006 =) 真的很想念他们... 希望下次能见到更多人吧... 一定还会有下次的吧.... =) 谢谢你,让我还能相信奇迹...

To be honest, I didn't realize that today is a special day with a special date... Until I saw lots of postSSS about 12/12/12. Trying not to follow the flow, so that I'm special enough for not noticing how important is the date of the day, which only occurs once within hundred years time...XD I don't think can see the next 121212 for the rest of my life... LOL Well, nothing special actually happen to me on this "special day". So, I just feel like posting something I guess, to make my day a little bit special. =) This gonna be an emo one... Another year passes by and every time when it comes to the month of December, I usually get emotional easily... If you know the story behind.... The 6C gathering is on this saturday, one of the events that I have been looking forward to since the day I missed the gathering last year. I've missed the gatherings for the last 2 years due to some stupid reasons. There were actually 5 gatherings since we were graduated from ...

Awww.... I miss my blog so much! It was kinda dead for almost a month. So, time to post something about what have I done for the past 4 weeks! =D Not gonna be very detailed, because I don't feel like exposing too much here.. hehe Hmm... So, lets start my post like this.... I went back to my hometown last month, just like what I did for almost every year, visited my grandma and relatives and stayed at my sister and uncle's house. Basically, what I did most of the time was stoning, sleeping, watching running man (so addictive) and the drama that I spent half of the year to finish it, reading( I brought my english grammar book with me just in case I'm too bored) and non-stop EATING!! How could I resist the Penang and Kedah's food temptation?? LOL I 'delayed' my burn fat plan just because of the FOOD... =P Here are some of the pictures that I took, thanks to someone, I feel like Sai Meng ing... haha My cousin sister even thought that I'm a weirdo for taking p...