So it begins.

Time seems to pass faster after I started my uni life. Due to that stupid wifi which my pc could actually detect it but couldn't even load a page, I just manage to update my blog after half of the month passed by.

I guess this is the first time I felt so sad for September arrived that early, at first....

I thought I would have home sick and cry every single day when my uni starts. 

But no, THAT is not what happened. 

I do have home sick every single day, but I never shed a tear from my first day of orientation until now. 

Perhaps it's because I set my expectation towards the Uni and hostel to the lowest, that's why I didn't cry because it was slightly better than my super low expectation. Except for the washrooms. Yes, I'm super disappointed with the washrooms. Not to mention my room, which I could actually spot the bricks behind the painted wall. 

Perhaps I didn't cry because I was too tired after the super torturing yet memorable orientation and all I wanted to do was just sleep for 24/7. Thanks to the orientation, I guess I could be ranked as one of those Experienced people. 

Perhaps I've become stronger, in mind. Or maybe I'm just holding on it, holding my tears for not letting it burst out. 

I'm too busy that I have no time to cry. But I still procrastinate a lot, like I will do anything but not studying. I've never been this lazy before. Screw that stupid wifi. 

At first I told all my friends that I dislike everything about my hostel except for the super speedy wifi. And now I regretted for saying that because the wifi was that fast because there were only us freshies for the first week of orientation, All things changed when our seniors got back. My pc forever couldn't load a page and that frustrates me a lot because my lappy is my everything. I needa download those lecture slides and check my uni mails. AND I INSIST ON USING MY LAPPY TO DO EVERYTHING. Damn it man! I'm losing my patience day by day thanks to that! Don't they know data and broadband will make me spend more money??? That's not fair! Urgh. 

Now, I need to search for the hotspot, if not I would just sign up for data! ish.

Back to my uni life. I actually quite enjoyed those orientation and kk activities. At least they kept me away from studies and hostel. Since when I hate study so much.... =/ I'm looking forward to club activities but I don't know which one I should take part because I don't want to be too busy. I want to go home often. I don't want to stay in that hostel. But no choice because I don't want to burden my parents that much and I still don't know which bus should I take to reach home. =.= Blame myself. 

Most of my course mates are from matrics and they have same bunch of friends who came from the same matrics. Even for my penang roommate, who took stpm, she has friends from the same school too. Or should I say most of my coursemates from other states have more friends that come together with them in UM. How about me that is from Subang? which is so near to UM? 

I'm jealous, so so jealous I admit. I feel so lonely when I'm alone. I need to take initiative to talk to everyone, I need to spend more time knowing them. Even there are KL people there, I'm not even close to them because we are in different groups and slots. I know I might look like an anti-social person if I don't take the initiative

That makes me miss home more. But I have no choice but to keep talking and talking to know more people. Look at the bright side, I start everything from zero and I get to meet new people. I'm trying to convince myself that way. It's tiring. Is it because I'm not cheerful or pretty enough that's why no one approaches to me first? LOL I don't have attitude problem mah, and I super friendly please! So sad for myself. 

I guess that's enough for now. I haven't finish my accounting tutotial questions yet.. And I need to find info for my HE projects. Crazy wei! 

Hopefully I get to update my blog in hostel one day~ Tata~