The end of Year 2.

YAY YAY YAY!

Finally breathing the fresh air and freedom I have been longing for so long. =)

There goes the end of my second year as a university student. No more busying for events and finally having a mind break from books, assignments and exams.

Le Potato mood is back! HAHA

There were so many things that have changed during this whole year, physically and mentally tired of everything. Never thought how a year could bring so many changes, to me, and to my surroundings. 

Was expecting a change that would make me happier but it actually went the other way round. But at least it has made me stronger. 

The paths that I have taken alone, the tears I shed when there was no one around, the heartbreaks with the pain I endured now. My hostel room was actually a better place than I thought it would be. 

I was once very afraid of being alone to walk back hostel, sitting in class or hate to settle lunch and dinner by myself. I need a company. But now, there were occasions that I rather chose to take my own journey back without being accompanied, sitting in the library without the need of reserving seat for anyone. Just simply me with my new best friend in Uni, my earphones. Immersing myself into deep thoughts or empty minds with my favourite songs and drama osts. Haha

Who knows that I would became the heads of departments in the events I participated when I was such a potato who skipped all the activities back in my high school years. LOL Sometimes I think it's because they didn't have a better option I supposed, that's way I got chosen. =/ Didn't expected that coming when I went for the PBCUM 30th interview to become a member of publicity department, but ended up becoming one of the heads of department. Thanks god I have a super experienced partner with me, who made me life much easier. UMBC Marketing Department was more stressful compared to my PBCUM event because I need to lead the department by myself. I wasn't as good enough to be honest. There were more responsibilities and tasks that I had to bear with. I doubted the contribution and effort I put into the events. It felt like I did a lot yet I gave the least if compared to other leaders. 

At least I tried my best right? At least I remained good relationships with my members compared to other departments. LOL 

Chances, they came and gone very quickly. There was once I was so close to my dreamland. It was so unreal until I felt the pain when I turned the offer down. I blamed myself for not being courageous enough. If I were brave enough perhaps things would be different. If I were independent enough perhaps I could give a yes. But No. I said a No.

Sigh.

Not to mention the changes in my heart. It shall remain untold for now. I need to talk about it. A serious one perhaps. 

Kay, despite the downs I had been experiencing, good things still happened! I have best buddies who always cheer me up when I don't feel like smiling, even though we are seriously lacked of buddy outings. I have new roommates who were so cute and heartwarming, despite each of us were busy with events during semester 1. Glad to have them to share love stories and gossips together, and finally have a thing called roommate outing. <3 Moreover, Besties were always there listening to my teary stories and supported me emotionally when I needed them. I just need to be me whenever I meet up with my girls. 

Thanks to the events, I got to have a bunch of my publicity bureau members who are all so Onz when it comes to having fun. Thanks to them, I managed to clear some of my budget list in UM, have a supper gang and got to watch the uni performance I was longing for.  =) 

Not to forget my form 6 friends who came all the way to UM just to surprise me and made me felt so special about myself. I'm still putting on a curve on my face when I think about the night I failed my own surprise hahaha. 

Detailed stories shall be updated after this perhaps? When I transfer the pictures to my desktop. =P

There goes a full stop of my year 2. Hopefully I get to appeal successfully for my hostel application to continue my bucket list in UM in my third year.

That's all for now.

Okay, time to sleep like no tomorrow again. =)