The 17th Year.

Perhaps am already tough to say that I've already given up on you? 

It has been a long time since the last time I dreamed about you eh. It wasn't a good one this time.

I was still very annoying to you even in my very own dream. But it was so real that I thought it was true. 

I still hate growing up sometimes. Things get complicated and the memories that were once my sweetest started to hurt me a little deep within. Just because I started to understand and realized the truth behind those fantasies I created myself. But life is about moving forward and no turning back. The reality hit me harder day by day. 

It is the price of growing up I guess.

To realize that we were never meant to cross paths in our lives, To realize that we were from 2 different worlds since the beginning, To realize that all the memories I treasured so much were just the good sides and the fantasized pieces.  To realize how naive I was back then when I thought a moment would mean forever.

But I'm glad that at least I was way more optimistic than I thought back then. I was happy and pampered by myself with the good old memories, thinking everyone would feel the same as me. 

And the best part of it was the years spent on admiring someone. I've learnt a lot. I was courageous enough to confess my feelings in the end with no regrets. And also stupid enough to do a lot of stupid things back then, 

Even though I have already woke up from my dreams long time ago, the feeling still remains a little. I miss those heart fluttering moments sometimes.   

16th years of waiting is very long, isn't it? The feeling has faded faster than I expected though. LOL Have been always wondering how are you doing right now. Though I still don't why you are keeping me away from being updated all of a sudden. But I guess you are doing fine as usual right, my old classmate?

I just hope that the history won't repeat again like how it happened 7 years ago. Just keep it this way. Updating you in some way, some how, some day from far far away is enough to keep me contented. Till that one day, we could put a curve on our faces naturally when we bump into each other. If there is this one day.

Goodbye, 我的单恋.