今天想念的人，是我。 想念那个看着你就会忍不住笑出来的我。 想念那个看到吃的就会忘了生气的我。 想念那个可以放肆耍任性的我。 想念那个不需要隐藏思念的我。 想念那个有想去的地方可以找个人说的我。 想念那个偶尔觉得自己很幸福的我。 想念那个心里总是被喜欢着一个人的感觉填得满满的我。 想念那个有话想说就能找人说的我。 想念那个伤心时会因为不好笑的笑话想打人被逗笑的我。 想念那个单纯乐观没太多杂念的我。 想念那个会为了目标永不放弃的我。 想念那个愿望只是希望别人能记得我的生日的我，不贪心的我，不会期盼太多的我，不会那么在意谁忘了哪些承诺的我。 想念那个， 能主动说出我想见你的，我。
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Dilemma.
Finally I'm in the last semester and my uni has never fail to disappoint me since the first semester. Am trying hard to find a reason to love my uni like other people, but I just couldn't find one. Urgh. We were taught to appreciate what we have, yeah but it just happened that everything there just frustrates me and I couldn't feel thankful at all for now. Perhaps the best surviving skill that my uni has taught me is the snatching skill. Basically, to survive there, you gotta snatch everything to get what you desire, or just to get the best from the worst. And this time, they decided to announce our exam result after the first day of timetable registration, causing chaos and dramas among the students. AND THEY WILL NOT UNDERSTAND HOW ONE SECOND CAN DECIDE YOUR WHOLE SEMESTER. And my unlucky 6th sense has turned into reality. T.T When I first entering my uni, my only hopes and expectations left to my course are to learn Korean Language and to ma...
Salut d'Amour
So, this is actually a movie review, which is very rare to occur in my blog. Ain't good at writing a movie review, but I just feel like doing it because this movie have brought me a lot of emotions. Hah. It so happened that yesterday night, while I planned to catch up with my long delayed drama marathon, I was randomly picking interesting videos to watch and this quite-some-time-ago movie has suddenly popped out in my mind. A movie which I planned to watch super long time ago and I have totally forgotten about this. Well, to be honest, the main attraction of this movie to me at the very first place is simply because of my ChanYeol, since it was his first movie I guess. Hahaha. Opps. But as a rational fan, the trailer did attracted my attention too. So, here is the movie that I would like to talk about. Salut d'Amour / Jang-Soo Store. (2015) This movie has many different movie titles, but I personally prefer the first one because Salut d'Amour in French is...
无法避免的事。
成长，是必然的。而成熟，却未必是那么一回事。 我依然重蹈了覆辙， 依然没把自己的心思好好地藏起来。 我承认我的任性，也承认我的幼稚。 总是会想，性格和脾气不太好的我，到最后会有谁留在我身边。 然后还是改不了的纠结敏感小毛病。 我依然还会天真地相信那所谓的天长地久，我还是会相信大家会和我有着一样的心情。 然后，我又忘了， 这世界唯一的不变，就是变。明明知道这道理的我，明明也慢慢地在改变的我，却埋怨了这道理。 人总是在成长，总是不断地从某一个阶段往另一个阶段迈进。只是我，总是比别人慢了好多拍。 我很努力地想要跟上大家的脚步，可是我却迟迟不肯踏出那沉重的脚步。因为那脚步意味着我承认了成长， 也必须面对我最不擅长的分离。 我不是看不到，我不是感觉不到， 也或许是我想太多，或许是我太贪心。对别人来说没什么大不了的事情，对我来说就是全世界。那是我改不了的坏习惯。别人或许会笑我傻，笑我笨，觉得为什么我总是把那些所谓的小事看得那么重，总是放不下。甚至觉得，我为什么要那么在意别人的看法，在意我在别人心里的位置。其实根本就没人那么有空去想得那么多，大家都有好多东西要忙， 谁还会有心思去管那么多，我根本就是没事拿来烦。 或许我就是那么傻吧。我遇到很喜欢的人的时候，遇到很在乎的东西的时候，理智就会马上断线。而且会毫不保留地表达我的在乎，却不知觉地形成了别人的压力吧。 然后，我又知道了，很多事情不能勉强。 大家总是说，想念一个人的话，就见面吧；关心一个人的话，就让他知道吧；想找人说话，那就说吧。要有行动才像话啊。 可是真的那么容易吗？ 一直以来，说穿了，我最害怕的不是分离，而是疏离。貌合神离是最可怕的东西。 好久不见真的没有关系，只要见面的时候，可以像好朋友聊天一样就好。 好久没有说话没有关系，只要见面的时候，依然一如既往地说笑就好。 我也说过，其实我这个人最需要的，是安全感。而我对安全感的定义，就是即使你不在我身边，我也不会觉得我们之间会有任何改变，就算是改变，也要是好的。 只是。。。 我最害怕的不是得不到回应，而是那不回应的理由。 大家都长大了，要忙的事情很多，不是每个人能随传随到，也不是每个人总是对着手...