My Secret Story...

I love to celebrate CNY every year. Decorate my house with tanglungs, grab angpows, eat a lot of food and biscuits, visit relatives' house and play some fireworks. =D Instead of having a dramatic cny this year, I rather have a simple and peaceful CNY.  I've tried to enjoy myself!!! =D Me and my family!! <3 Two more pictures....with my new clothes!! I love them!! But I'm not good at taking this type of pictures, I looked kinda weird..haha XD Oh yeah, not to forget, I went emily and lip poh's house today (oopps, is yesterday now XD.)We didnt play any games but we talked a lot. We updated about our life recently, discussed about our future plan, and gossiped too... haha.. It was just a few hours, but for me it was more than enough... I missed them so much!!! The only thing I felt awkward was that everyone seemed to have their plans on their studies, but I'm still blur and thinking too much, slap face* Anyway, I will find my way someday soon, very soon....=) ...

农历新年快乐!! 希望今年可以有个快乐的新年, 即使简单也没关系, 只要大家开心就好! 我要穿上美美的衣服, 去亲戚朋友家拜年, 拿很多很多的红包!!!!  哈哈 =D 再次祝大家新年快乐, 把不好的东西全都忘掉!!! =)

Am I alone??? I asked myself. This is a contradicting question. I have my family around, I have my best friends and classmates with me. From that, I know I'm not alone. But the loneliness is still there, I can feel it. Too much of emotional dependency, I guess. Although everyone becomes busy day by day, but our friendship will always be the same right??? =) I had a lot of memories with my friends, and these memories will always stay in my heart. Not trying to be emotional here, I'm just trying to be.......contented??? Haha.... Here are some pictures with.... my ex ex classmates, when I was form 3... =D The sigmarians...=) And my ji mui...haha <3 And the most important people in my life... My beloved family....=) Well, after seeing those pictures, Instead of thinking that I'm forever alone, perhaps I should look at the bright side, I'm forever Not alone!!! =D There are a lot of peop...

再多一个 星期, 就是农历新年了. =) 希望今年可以拿到多多红包啦!! =D 几个月前, 我跟家人到妈妈的朋友家看人家拍新年MV, 是ntv7 的艺人拍的. 这算是我第一次看人拍MV 吧. 我去看的时候都已经是晚上了, 他们还在拍, 听说还拍到凌晨. 好夸张哦! 他们看起来忙了一整天, 应该很累, 不过在镜头面前还是要很专业地摆出很有精神的样子. 他们重复唱着一样的歌, "全家福", 唱歌的次数多到最后我还可以背出歌词来...再加上他们一直重复同样的动作, 我忍不住笑了出来, 不好意思啦..... 既然我都看见他们的真人了, 我当然乘着这难得的机会跟他们拍了一些照片...=) 蔡佩璇, 她蛮漂亮的... =) 陈凯旋, 他一见我就问是不是要拍照, 我当场傻眼...哈哈 王淑君, 她很亲切!  蔡河立, 他那时在看着自己的戏耶, 而且还在演反派, 当时跟他拍照还感觉到杀气..哈 辛伟廉, 我没有用flash light啦!! 就这样, 我跟这五个艺人拍照, 也看了人家拍MV, 是个很不错的经验啦!!!  先祝大家....新年快乐!!! =D 新年新希望, 过个快乐的新年吧!!! =)

我一直以为在新的一年里, 我会有新的开始... 没错, 我是有新的开始, 就是我有很多时间让我去花, 我也很努力地把我的时间填满. 我用了很多时间去发呆, 用很多时间去想, 我到底能做些什么... 我有太多的束缚, 也没有太多自由去完成我的计划.... 我的心情好复杂, 好矛盾..... 现在的我, 正在慢慢地习惯不用去上课的生活. 虽然说以后还是要去上课的, 不过我现在的确还在放假啊! 好无聊哦... 我的心情会那么地复杂, 应该是因为别人开始忙开学的事情, 而我却在家里发呆... 也或许是因为我真的要开始适应再也没办法再见到他的生活吧... 从我认识他的第一天起, 他就再也没有从我的记忆和视线中消失过. 可是现在我们都中学毕业了, 他也开始了他的学院生活, 也代表他正式从我的世界中慢慢消失. 而我呢, 应该很快就从他的记忆中消失吧, 毕竟对他来说, 我只是一个过客而已,一点也不重要. 他也不会再因为我喜欢他而觉得有负担...说不定以后在路上碰到, 他也未必认得我是谁... 我知道, 总有一天, 我也会把他给忘了. 虽然我不知道我会用多少时间去忘记一个人, 但我知道若以后我跟他没有任何一点交集, 我真的很有可能不再喜欢他, 很有可能把他从我的记忆里面消除. 认清楚这事实的我, 觉得好难过, 因为我毕竟花了很长的时间去喜欢一个人, 就这样把他忘记, 好像觉得有点对不起自己所花的11年的时间. 可是如果一直忘不了他, 难道我必须一直活在过去吗?? 不管了啦!!!以后的事情, 没人知道, 所以, 我会好好地过我现在的生活, 一个我必须用很长时间去适应的生活. 对了!! 差点忘了! 他开始上课了吧...最后一次帮他加油吧!!! 我想他应该没看到我上次写的东西, 不过我相信他知道我会帮他加油的!!    加油!! 你一定可以达成你的目标的!!! College 的生活应该很不错吧!! =) 我也会很努力地加油的!!! 我要去实现我的愿望!!! =)

I know that now is a bit late to say happy new year, so I will say.....Happy New Day!!!! okay...I'm talking crap.....XD Well, I finished my undang test just now, Finally!!!! After I delayed the test for 2 weeks...I felt so sorry for emily and shu ying...but at least we took the test together right??? Haha.... I was so nervous yesterday, I afraid that I will fail my undang test...for your information, my common sense is extremely bad....I dont want to admit it, but it's true......BUT!!! I got 50/50 for my test today!!!!! (Y)  I was damn blur just now, I thought I got 42/50 only.....till emily reminded me..... I'm so happy!!!! This will give me a lot more of confidence for my practical later...=) I think I should get my license first before I start any other plan, but it will take me months to get my "P" license....So, I need to find something to do for now, I dont want to "waste" too much time, or else I will be lifeless...LOL... Maybe I should do som...