My Secret Story...

I feel like crying.....but I cant... I have been waiting for 1 year, just because of my dear friends... Finally, the day has come....I am so happy. I thought although they said I cant go anywhere again, but I will still show my determination to them...... But for now, nothing....nothing else.....no more hope, the wish that I have made for this year will not become true.... :'( For many people, a gathering is just a simple thing, is not really important...but for me, it means a lot, a lot..... I could only see my old friends once a year (not including those who still study at the same school of mine) Now, they decided to postpone the gathering, I cant attend the gathering due to some reasons.... I know I cannot be a selfish person, so....  all i can do is just hope my dear friends will enjoy themselves.....=)

我期待的那一天终于来了!!! 6C班的Gathering 就在下下个星期, 如无意外的话.... 可是, 我真的很怕我没办法去, 因为我可能要balik kampung, 也怕会期待落空, 我好不容易等到现在, 就是为了再见他们一面, 跟他们说话, 我真的很想念他们, 是真的!!! 老天爷!! 请您一定要让我再见他们, 让一切顺顺利利的.....我真的很想念我的朋友....

Suddenly I want to everyone that, I love Teddys!! They are so cute!!! no matter they are big, medium or small in size, I still love them!!! and I like to hug them too....haha My first cute bear!! it knows all my secrets...hehe  My second bear!! haha.... CUTE!! This is mp3 player!! I hope I have one... Rainbow the 'coffee' bear OMG!!They are actually 1.2 meter tall!!! =D p.s I hope one day I will have a shop which sells teddys and present, and I will be the boss!!! hahaha.... Teddy Bear is the best !! =)

嫉妒和羡慕之间的差别是什么?? 我不知道, 也开始分不清....... 我原以为我已经可以接受, 但是我发现自己内心里的矛盾, 快压得我喘不过气来, 真的..... 一直向前走, 走不完距离, 一直向后退不出回忆, 很高兴有心事, 帮我困住自己. 我所谓的百毒不侵, 就是希望自己能放下, 不要在原地踏步. 可是, 现在的我, 思想已经乱到让我很难过. 看见别人很快乐, 很幸福, 也很幸运的时候, 我真的... 我知道我太不知足, 也太贪心了. 现在的我, 不能让自己有自私的想法, 也努力地学着去放下, 学着去面对.... 因为矛盾真的很可怕.....我只想要有一个单纯的想法...去打开我心里的结.... 我只想要我和我身边的人快乐, 幸福. =)

Well, Well, Well....is time for HOLIDAYs!!!!!   Honestly, I'm not really excited because I do not plan anything to do during holidays...I have started my holidays earlier because I won't go to school anymore. My family asked me why and I told them there was nothing to do at school, the teachers did not come to class, I had got all my exam results and I seriously got nothing to do besides chatting and playing cards. Oh yea!!! Suddenly remembered, yesterday, Emily used UNO cards as tarot cards!!!(although I am the one who started it first) LOL She forced me to ask about relationship and she took Wei Yi's bottle as crystal ball. She acted like she is a professional and kept on talking something ridiculous. She even asked everyone in my class and we were like "wth she is talking about". But still, I was not that bored after all.  Haha!!  Back to the point, I really have no idea about what should I do during the one and a half  holidays at home. No ...

Bio got B, Chemis got B, Chinese got B, Sejarah got B!!!!!!!! I never get B for sejarah before, but now..... urgh.....I hate it!!! Although I still got As for other subjects, but I am totally in bad bad mood today, all results I got were so baddddd...=( I know they were just marks that show A,B,C,D, BUT........ haiz....I don't want to care anymore!! So, I decided to do exercises everyday during holidays, add maths, chemis, bio, physics and more and more to go, if I am determined enough. I must burn Fats too!!! I want to become a better person!!! =) jia you jia you!!!

I'm SMART , I'm THIN , I'm ACTIVE , I'm SOCIALISED , I'm HONEST , I'm OPTIMISTIC , I'm PRETTY , I'm PER FECT !!! Someone: Stop lying!!! you are not that prefect!! Me: Yup!! I am trying to lie to myself, they will let me feel better.... The Truth is, I am not Perfect. I am not smart enough, but I am not stupid; I am not thin enough, but I think I am not that fat; I am not active enough, but at least I still like sports; I am not socialised, but I still want to be friend with everyone; I am not honest enough, because I will still lie to protect myself; I am not optimistic enough, because sometimes I will look at the dark side of things; I am not pretty, I know that!!! but I think I'm not that ugly, right?? So, I'm not perfect, no one is perfect. I am just simple enough to be simple. But there are still lot of people that are nearly prefect, and luckily they are my friends, my classmates, my role models..... And..... You...

等待是幸福的, 我一直这样相信着.... 所以, 我是一个超级无敌有耐心的人. 相信吗??? Haha.... * 有空听一下 "背影" 吧!! 你就会了解我是怎样的一个人.....    因为我超爱这首歌了!!!! =) 

我有一个 小 小 的 愿 望...... 属 于 我 的 东 西, 也 就 是 我 的 回 忆, 是 否 能... 让 我 再 一 次 拥 有 我 失 去 的 东 西....... *这原本是一个秘密,  但我想重新开始, 也不想伤害人, 所以我想坦诚....    如果有人明白我的意思的话, 请不要问我为什么, 只要相信我,    我只是不想失去我最在乎的东西.....