My Secret Story...

6 1/2 hours to go!!!! Say bye-bye to 2010....the year of honeymoon(actually it was not). Here comes the year of......... *HOPES!!!! I gonna be very busy.....haha... 2011, a lots of things to do, a lots of things to plan..... at the same time, SPM APPROACHING.... huhhhhh..... OMG!!! I am getting older more matured......I think..... =D I got my books two days ago, there were 19 of them(and they are heavy) + exercises books......I had to bring all of them to my dad's car by my own. Well.....everyone got the same situation, not just me, but at that time, I was hoping there would be a trolley there....or maybe someone who is kind enough to help me, Of course that was a DREAM, I still need to carry them to my dad's car.....After few hours later, when i was checking my books, I found they gave me the two Chemistry text books!!! WTH Come on, now I need to go twice...=.= Fortunately, the SPBT students were there and I got my pratical book back......

Recently, I was addicted to a super duper nice korean drama..... He's Beautiful!!!! 原来是美男啊!!! It had been such a long time I didnt addicted to a drama....but now I fall in love again with the best korean drama... Before I started to watch the drama, I had watch the trailer, it was nice!!! Then after I started watching, I cant resist it, but I still can control myself, not like Emily, watch the whole drama after she watched the first episode....haha The reasonS I like this drama are: This drama is funny and really really nice <3 Hwang Tae Kyung is awesome, cool and he looks cute when he smiles.. Go Mi Nam / Mi Nyu is pretty, obedient and sometimes she melts Tae Kyung's heart... Kang Shin Woo always take care of Mi Nyu and keeps her secret... Jeremy is the cutest among them, he makes everyone in the group feel cheerful all the times..... The best thing is They are all talented : they can sing, dance and act well!! A.N.JELL!!!! too much reasons, cant list all of them...

Well, I cut my hair yesterday.....as a brand new start... but it cost a lot too (RM33 for a hair cut o.0)....haha Now, I got a new look, after I kept my precious long hair for 4 years T.T.....Before that, my mom had asked to cut my hair short for N times...cant count....=) But now, the first time I wanted my hair be short, but not really short lah.... Because I wanted to have a BRAND NEW START!!!! Start everything over again, just like when I was form 1. This is because I found that I was 'sesat'...(not in the forest LOL) I changed a lot (but not really a lot), I thought too much and I was getting blur and confused about my thoughts.... I am tired of these...I just want to be a simple 16+ years old teenager... thats all....btw, next year I gonna be very busy, I dont want anything else that will distracts me from my studies. (I hope so lah) =D So..... Tata....Merry Christmas!! =) (just random) Chow Zi Huey will gonna be an OPTIMIST!!! Muahahaha p.s...

努力不想让别人知道我有多难过, 但是我才发现这样很难, 因为我更加难过了... 欲哭无泪, 还是强忍着泪水, 这两者的感觉, 我都体会过了... 人家说, 世界上最遥远的距离, 是我站在你前面, 你却不知道我的心在想什么. 但现在的我觉得, 最遥远的距离, 是我明明知道你就在那里, 我却无法靠近... 怎么可以这样对我!!!!! 要么就带我到远一点的地方, 让我彻底死心啊!!! 为什么偏偏就要在对面的大楼呢??? 这样也太绝了吧!!! 我等了一年, 整整一年!!! 现实也太残忍了吧....我明明就有机会跟他们聚在一起的, 为什么要这样对我!!! 我又要再等一年.....ahhhhhhh.....你知道我有多想念他们吗???? 好不容易才等到, 却要这样对我.... 什么公平不公平, 世界永远都是不公平的呀!! 我不管了!!! 明年SPM过后, 我一定要去, 一定要!!!!!!!!!!!! 什么都没办法阻止我..... p.s 这应该是最后一次我会这样了, 我会很努力, 很努力, 很有耐心地等待下一次的来临.......你们一定要等我....

I had failed again....for the same thing....T.T WHY!!!!! I cried for the whole night...... If I really have to choose, I will definitely choose to go there, I will not hesitate, I'M SERIOUS!!! but what can I do??  I can do nothing, nothing will change....I have to wait for a year....(again) someone tell me the way to feel better, please......or tell me the way to ask to go......please...... aaaahhhhhh!!!(shout) p.s   dont worry, I just want to express myself, thats all.... I will cheer up, I will try.....just let me emo for a while....just a while

我相信我还有机会的, 只要我不放弃, 就会有希望的!!! 加油!!! =)

DECEMBER!!!! today is the first day of December!! why am I so excited?? those who are reading this must be curious right? Actually there's nothing. I just want to be more optimistic..haha....just like usual, I guess.. Time passes so fast......(again) I still remember the first day I went into 1 Sigma, 3 Eta and 4 Sigma, but I just cant remember the first day of becoming a form 2 Sigma student...haha Well, next year, I will become the Senior of the School!!! muahahaha.....(trying to act like dai ka che) and a form 5 student who needs to face SPM!!! boooo...... Come on!!! start from today(again), is time to become a 'hardworking' person. I will have a brand new start next year, no more blah blah blah stuff, no more thinking something useless that will confuse myself or make me depressed. All I will be doing is just like the first day I came to the secondary school, think of nothing, just be a simple student: study, try to be active in co-cu, and get more Friends!!! ...