My Secret Story...

This gonna be a short post about the Pre- U Gala Night yesterday! =) Well, as I said earlier, I attended the Gala Night held in my school yesterday. At first, I actually refused to take part in this thingy because I thought this function would be boring since it is held in my school... (if you know what I was complaining last time... lol) The teacher even offered me to tumpang her car and dumped me by the roadside... >.< But then, I decided to attend just because my friends are performing that night!! =) What a good friend am I right?? Just Agree! haha And I "persuaded" others to go too! =D And guess what, the Theme of the gala is Cowboy and Portuguese Style and checkered shirt with jeans is the best option for the theme. And guess what again, I have many many Checkered shirts!! hahaha My friends even teased me for that... >< I had to find the shirt that none of the friends of mine have ever seen before...lol Back to the day of gala, I followed Yen Cheing...

Few days ago, Syuen asked me a question which had made me thought about a lot of things. She asked me whether I prefer my secondary school's life or the form 6 life now... Well, to be honest, I actually hesitated, I don't know why. I answered that I love my secondary's life wayyyy more than now (because my best friends and he were there), but Syuen just came up with her opinion that I seemed to love and enjoy my life right now and I look happy everyday in school. I was like: Really?? o.O Not that I hate my life now (few months ago, Yes), is just that I don't think I'm that "happy" which I seemed to be. I used to feel lonely in a way, since I started my form 6 life. Best friends were studying in different colleges and we didn't spend most of the time together like we did last time. But meeting new people and friends, This is Life.... So, I tried my best to adapt to the new environment which is so not familiar to me. Time passed by, the complaints be...

要怎么开始好呢? 我迟了好多天才有时间写我想写的东西耶...不知道他会不会看到, 但是我想应该不会吧... 那种想被发现, 又害怕被人笑很傻的感觉, 只有自己才懂吧... 就当作是在听我说一个不是很有趣的故事吧... 好久好久以前, 有个小女孩一直等待着一个人, 从她认识他的第一天起... 这张照片, 是她在毕业的那天拍的;  这个背影, 是她在这几年来, 一直静静凝望着的...很好看吧? 从她认识他的第一天起, 她的心里就一直住着同样的一个人, 住了好久好久, 也从来没被动摇过.. 她从一开始傻傻地去注意一个人, 到她学会怎么去喜欢一 个人, 学会怎么去等待一个人, 也学会了不要求回报的付出...  她一直喜欢着的他, 是一个很好看, 很聪明, 很厉害的男生. 他读书很厉害, 打球很厉害, 还会弹钢琴, 几乎是一个完美的男生. 而其实这些条件, 是在她喜欢上他之后才发现的.... 她觉得他认真起来的样子很酷, 打球的样子很帅, 笑起来的样子很好看, 耍白痴的样子也很可爱....这样听起来, 很花痴对吧? 女生不都这样的吗?  曾经, 女孩以为小学毕业后, 就再也见不到他了, 却没想到原来他也读同一所中学....也因为这样, 从同班的面对面, 到后来不同班而只能静静地看着他的背影; 从一开始的熟悉, 到后来的陌生, 都让女孩觉得很无奈... 但是她还是觉得很开心, 因为她至少还能见到他, 这样就够了... 她习惯每天去学校的时候, 期待下课和放学的时间, 因为只有在那时候, 她才能见到他. 她习惯在人群中找寻他的身影, 她习惯在人群中只注意到他, 她习惯了静静地守护他的背影, 即使跟他没有任何交集也没关系... 因为只要能够见到他, 她就会觉得很幸福....她曾经有想过, 这会不会只是因为她习惯有男孩的存在, 而不是喜欢他呢? 不过, 她很快就知道答案了, 她会因为看见他出现在面前, 脸上挂着笑容而开心一整天, 也会因为他对她的无视而难过一整天...他所说的每一句话, 都会影响她的心情.. 她也很清楚地记得, 她为了他而心跳加速的声音.......她知道这些都不只是因为习惯才这样的... 她和他一直没有办法好好地做朋友, 只因为他们之间有太多误会了... 虽然他们还是有和平相...