Mood.

Just realized I tend to get excited during the beginning of the month and become emotional day by day as the month is approaching to the end. 

It was the same since a few years ago. LOL

I guess Autumn baby gets emotional easily eh. Though it's always summer for all seasons in this country. HAHAH

I wish I could learn how to expect the least and stop being so sensitive.

Accept the fact that not everyone is feeling the same like I do. 

Sometimes, knowing too much is tiring. 

Knowing that the feelings weren't mutual at the first place, knowing that priorities are never on my side, knowing that if I stop trying, it might be a full stop.

The feeling of insecurity deepens day by day, year by year. But there is no one who ever tried to reassure that things would not change. 

And I couldn't tell anyone that I care because it's pressuring and no one likes that. 

So yeah. I wish that you care, just like I do. I wish that you would remember, just I like I do.

But, it's just me being greedy. 

Ah, nothing much actually, just simply feel like typing something today.

It's just that,

I miss those days when I'm able to laugh until my stomach hurts. 

Am trying hard to be happy again. Genuinely happy. =)